So many people have hurt me

Let me down

Gone behind my back...

Millions of times.

Now that someone really wants me to trust them, I cant.

I hide myself, behind walls of protection, to save my heart from more pain that will hurt it,

But I keep failing, wrong people, wrong situations.

I want to tell people that i trust them, but how can i when its so hard for me?

Im scared of placing my trust in their hands.. It has left scarrs and footprints in my heart.

Without knowing if they will cherish it, or abuse it. But it usually goes the other way around, abuse.

They know that they can trust me, that the secrets they tell they stay within me.

They can trust me to the full.

But then it comes to me, I cant fully.

I honestly dont know why, someone please teach me how to trust again.. Tell me its okey to trust, someone once more shoe me how i can come out from those talls that i have buildt, that I somewhat use to protect me..

I just want to give someone my trust.

But, why do they put it on trail?

Or hide things for me, when I ask for the truth or seeing with my own eyes?

I dont know, I dont know anything right now. But its confusing, that I do know...

I reach out my hand, I want someone to reach it, and touch my heart... And earn my faith to trust again...